Friday, September 19, 2008

Struggling...a little less

I don't write much about what I do, professionally, or how it impacts our life. Frames of Infinity was always a dream I had stored away in the back of my heart, I never thought it would become a reality. Photography was something I always just loved, so I piddled with it here and there. Before I had Maggie I had no idea what direction my life was headed in, and most times it was not going in a great direction so photography was just a hobby.
Once Maggie came along, I fell head over heels with photography. I was hired at Picture People, and basically learned what I had to on the job. I didn't really need to know that much about actual photography, as long as i knew how to work my equipment there, and could capture those great smiles I had a large following.
Then we moved, and I became a stay at home mom. Greg knew how much I missed working, and knew how much I loved being a photographer, so he helped make my dream a reality. It's been a tough two years, I've had to go back and actually "learn" my camera, I had to realize through mistakes that I was no longer a "studio" photographer and learn to use natural light to my advantage. We didn't have the money to throw down to just jump in and get me everything I needed, so we've put it together a piece at a time. We're still putting pieces together and I'm loving learning to use all my new pieces.
The last few months though have been tough, emotionally, as I've struggled with if this is what I'm supposed to be doing. This is a very personal business, and if people don't like what I do, then it's just me putting myself out there, and when no one calls, it hurts. There came a point in the last few weeks where I considered just taking down the website, and forgetting all about it. Greg and I talked about it, I prayed, and prayed, and then waited. I decided to give it just a little more time, and if nothing changed, then that would be the end of it. The only photography I would continue on with would be NILMDTS and OpLove, as these are the places I've felt the Lord taking me to. I only discussed this with two people and put it in God's hands. My heart was heavy and sad as I thought of giving up what I love...then something happened...In the last week, WEEK, everything has changed. I have so many people contacting me that I actually have a calendar filling up. I'm crying right now as I type this...God is good. It seems that I am supposed to continue on this path for now, and I could not be happier.
I just want to say thank you to all of you that support us, believe in us, both of us, because our life wouldn't be the same without you. Greg and I are so blessed, and yep, we know it's not easy...but it will be okay!! As long as we're all together and have your love, we can make it through anything!

I waited patiently and expectantly for the Lord; and He inclined to me and heard my cry
Psalm 40: 1
And let us not grow weary in well-doing, for in due season we shall real, if we do not lose heart. Galatians 6.9

2 wonderful people say::

Nicole said...

First off... I love what you've done to your blog; especially the Burgh picture at the top. Very cool!

Secondly, I am so glad that God answered your prayer and showed you that you are in it for the long haul - at least for awhile anyway. I LOVE your work and would LOVE to have you take our portraits someday, but for now, we can't really afford it. I wish you the best of luck with your work - you definitely have been given a "gift." Please continue to use it - for everyone's benefit. :o)

God Bless, Nicole

Hilary said...

You do have a great talent taking pictures..glad that you are booked with appointments..God is good!! Your blog looks great..the fair pictures are cute too..Fionn is getting so big. LOVE his cowboy hat:)