Monday, August 25, 2008

The night before life changes forever...

I've been trying to be strong, really I have, it's just Kindergarten...

I know that the last few weeks I have hinted that I am struggling, but tonight I am just a wreck. Struggling is an understatement. I don't know why I am so worked up or why the thought of what is coming in the morning makes me tear up, but I can't seem to control it!
Today was orientation for Kindergarten and she did fabulous(just like we knew she would) The only sad part for her was finding out her friend Sophia was not in her classroom. They will still see each other at lunch and recess and some times in the afternoon's but trying explaining that to a five year old. There is still going to be other kids that she went to Pre-K with in her class, but Sophia is her"bestest friend" from school so it was devastating to her. Her teacher, Mrs. Shipley, was very nice and Maggie commented that she liked her on the way out, so that is a bonus. Mrs. Moore, her Pre-K teacher even came up and said hi to the pre-k kids and asked about summer, so Mags was THRILLED...there were tears last spring when she found out Mrs. Moore would NOT be her Kindergarten teacher! So after orientation we went and picked up her" cupcake cake" that she had to have to take tomorrow and juice at Wal-mart, and she seemed fine while we shopped. She asked if I were still making her cake tomorrow and I reminded her she wanted to go out to dinner tomorrow so I could make it another day...well that did not fly so well. She looked slightly panicked, so we changed our plans and we went out to eat tonight. She chose Longhorn(she loves the chocolate stampede there) and we all had a nice dinner together. Maggie still was fine, excited about tomorrow, I was already starting to go through the routine of needing to get her ready....SOOOOoo off to Toys R us to "look around" We already got her a couple things, but wanted to see what really caught her eye...no buying tonight, we'll do it tomorrow while she's at school(trying to keep busy)
After our venture we came home where the neighbor came out and gave Maggie a card and gift(thank you Norrine) and then in for a tubby. She got all squeaky clean and into her jammies. We read a special kindergarten book, then said prayer. Daddy and Fionn left the room and I asked for one more hug...

She LAUNCHED herself into my arms and started SOBBING! My heart broke and I started crying with her! I told her not to be scared, that she knew the other kids, she knew the school, and mommy and daddy were just a couple blocks away. She continued to sob and told me she didn't want to go without me, and all she wanted was to take a picture of all of us with her tomorrow...my beautiful, sweet, sweet girl. I cannot believe she is scared. Last year for Pre-K she ran in and barely kissed us good-bye she was so excited. Tonight it took me a good 15 minutes to get her calm again, so PLEASE say a little prayer for Maggie tomorrow. I know she will be fine as soon as class starts, if we had any doubts she wouldn't be going, but it seems like she needs just a little nudge...

As for me, Greg is home tomorrow, and we have lots of busy work to keep us occupied! Not to mention a birthday cake to make and a house to decorate. I'm sure there will be lots of pictures posted. It just seems impossible that she will be FIVE tomorrow. I know that it's not a dream, i just don't know where the time has gone! So tonight, here's a look back at Maggie through the years...enjoy!
This is highlights of the first TWO years!



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