Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Heavy Heart

This is NOT the post I had planned on writing tonight, but my heart is heavy and physically hurts...

I know that "family" is a term that can mean so much, but I know that MY family is my world. Greg, Maggie and Fionn. There is nothing more precious to me in the world than my family. I thank God everyday for the blessing he bestows on us. "Life is Good" has been OUR motto for a long time...
BUT

Then days like today happen, and the term "family" brings on a whole new meaning. MY parents, who NEVER come to Pittsburgh just "to visit" us came to town, last minute, for a STEELERS celebration at Heinz Field. For a BILLY RAY CYRUS concert, not ME or their grandchildren. Okay, not a big deal, I figured they would just stop by and say hi, and we waited...the kids bedtime came...and we waited...the kids finally had to go to bed.
It's 2:43am, I'm still waiting...

Not only were my parents here, but my sister and all her children as well, INCLUDING my niece Zarah who we've yet to learn IF she's coming to live with us or not. School starts in TWO weeks. I'm not impressed to say the least. Not only am I not impressed, I'm hurt.

Yeah we come home all the time, and I hardly see my family, but I come home to WORK most of the time, or we already have plans. IF they would ask to do something we would meet them.

But no, nothing tonight when they came HERE, five minutes down the street from my house...

My relationship with my "family" is not great. I know that has to be one of the reasons that I won the in-law lottery, seriously ya'll, I did. God knows who you need in your life, and as if Greg wasn't my perfect man already, he came with a BEAUTIFUL family as well. I am honored to be a part of their family.
BUT..it still hurts that my own parents barely know me, or their grandchildren. They spend every day with my sister and her kids that for them to not even know anything about us is just unreal to me.
I know i'm whining, but this is MY blog, my place to do that...I'm too upset tonight to even include a picture, so you know how bad it is! On that note i'm going to bed!

5 wonderful people say::

Anonymous said...

Ging,

I'm so very sorry that this happened. I'm so sorry about Zarah (?) too. She would love to be with you guys.
I can't wait to see you in 3 days. I know I can never take your parents place, but you are loved here. Love ya,
Mom Hites

Nicole said...

Praying for your heavy heart, Ging.

Just Me said...

I am so sorry for your hurting and heavy heart. I have started and deleted a number of sentences to leave here, but I am unable to find any words... I made the "mistake" of skimming through this post at work this afternoon and it made me sick to my stomach as the tears burned my eyes. Tonight, I just let the tears fall. You are my friend and I don't like to see my friends hurting! I wish I could give you a "for real" hug, but also realize that the love and hugs from your other family and friends cannot replace those that you should be receiving from them...

I am so excited for your beach vacation! Have fun! (Even though I will TOTALLY miss you!)
♥ Amanda

Lauren said...

Oh, honey! I am so sorry this happened. *Huge Hug* Just keep repeating: Ft. Lauderdale, Ft. Lauderdale!

Anonymous said...

oh Ginger, I'm just now reading this. That sucks and I'm sorry. how great, though, that you were blessed with wonderful in-laws (and it sounds like they know how to vacation too!!)...

-Ana